My story starts the same as most. My parents divorced, my father had an affair & was an alcoholic, my sibling pass away.
The rest is where I struggle. I heard WICC about 1½ years ago. I had just had my heart broken by the man I had an affair with. Before I am judged here is the rest of the story, I married very young, it has never been the soul mate/best friend marriage. I am very quiet, keep the peace, do what is expected of me. My husband is very controlling, you don’t see my physical scares but I‘m abused mentally, socially & emotionally.
I had never let anyone inside my walls, until this man, he was everything I had always dreamed of, I seen my future in him. This man helped me to find me, to feel alive, happy & all he taught me, helped me & gave me was so beautiful. He was my best friend & soul mate.
He broke my heart by staying with his wife (correct thing) but also going to another female. I became depressed. I worked at forgiving myself for all my wrongs & to move forward. A part of me always wishing & wanting him & wondering - what if.
After a year he has came back into my life.
I struggle with doing what is right and what feels right. I just want to be happy. Te Am

My husband passed away from lung canceer at the age of 53. He was diagnosed and died within 7 months. He was 8 years older than myself. We had been married for 29 years. Our children are 28 & 31. My 28 year old son was in prison when he died. He had been in prison off & on since he was 17. It was a lot of rough times. The majority of the time my late husband was physically abusive but I stayed with him because deep down I new he really loved me. He just didn't know how to show it since he came from an abusive family. He was always mean to our son so I felt I had to make up for that. I bought him anything he wanted. It was so different between our son & daughter. I loved my husband very much but there is only so much a person can really take. I had seperated from him 4 times during our marriage but always went back. When he was diagnosed I thought my rough life was finally over. I left my husband and went to a childhood sweetheart. That was the biggest mistake I could have made. My husband just gave up. When he got really bad I went back home to take care of him. I feel so guilty that if I had stayed he would have not given up & be alive today. I cannot & will not forgive myself.

If no one has said it ... Thank you Leann for this site it helps us all Love P.A.L.

I am a 31yr old single female with Spina Bifida and life has been difficult at times.I know things can ALWAYS be worst trust me. I have never really felt like I fit in anywhere and I have been beaten down by the ones I love and trusted. I still deal with medical issues on a daily basis but I now know there are some things I can not change, so I am not affected so badly by them anymore. This song has help me get through some pretty dark times and for that I thank you from the bottom of my heart.

the first day i got caught of doing something bad...was the day i knew i loved this song....i knew i didn't know much about my mother or father but that day i felt something come over me and say i need to know them more..i have lived with them my whole life...i know i cannot change what i did but i know i can change what i want to change...i will learn to let go of my mistakes and make new plans for myself...i just got done writing a song called the makings of me....the chorus goes....this is me, not no one else, tell me what to do, the way life goes is the what i want it too, peple will tell me what to do, but now i am not trusting anyone one that gets in my way that is the makings of me...
i feel that way everyday...but now there is nothing to be afraid of....i will learn to trust God and what he has in store for me....