I am in love with a married man. Though I know he isn't right for me, I can't help what I feel. We are both crazy about each other, and don't know what to do about it.

My mom died from pancreatic cancer at age 49 in 2004. For the last 5 years, I have struggled to regain my faith in God as well as life and love. I've also tried hard to find a friend who would be willing to listen to me talk about my mom as much and as often as I felt I needed to, but have been unsuccessful in my search for that friend. Ultimately, I know I have a lot of good people in my life who just don't really know how to be that friend, but it's still difficult feeling like I don't have the freedom to talk about the experience that shattered my present and forever altered my future whenever I want. I also need to acknowledge that I can't change the loss and do my best to accept it for what it is. But that is not an easy thing to do. And so I struggle to let go of what I cannot change - both the loss and the way other people have treated me since.

I am in love with someone that has been sentenced to life in Prison for Murder. Why I don't know. He never treated me good ever. He was very controlling. He cheated on me always. He would lie to me all the time. He would use me to get what he wanted. He used to tell his friends that I was his bank. I could go on and on with how much of a jerk he was and how badly he treated me and yet I still love him. I think why. Why do I love him. I tell myself I just miss him and that I am lonely but yet I think of him constantly. I worry about him always. Crazy I know but it is truly how I feel. What is wrong with me? Why would I want to be with someone that has treated me so badly and has committed MURDER? I don't know. I pray that Heavenly Father will put someone in my life that I can love, respect and admire. Someone that might love me, respect me, and admire me. I want so much to know what it is like to really be loved by someone. I have met several guys but I am so shy and afraid I can't even talk to them. I am afraid that if they knew about me being with someone that has murdered then they won't want anything to do with me. I am afraid I'll be hurt again.

I have been trying to have a baby for 2 years. I dont feel like a real woman. I want a baby so bad. I dont know what I have done to deserve not to have a baby. I partied alot in college and am scared that i am being punished for that. The doctors cant find anything wrong with me.

I am 28 yrs old, and I have lived with a big scar on my face since I was 8 yrs old from a car accident, I know without a lot of money I can't change that. I have went through so much growing up, and I guess sometimes I still do.
My mom and dad are alcohlics, have been every since I can remember. I remember the screaming and fighting I heard and seen. I even slept in my cloths when I was a child cause I never knew when my dad was gonna come home drunk and hurt my mom. My mom moved my brother and me from place to place. I wish and pray every day that I could change my parents but it still hasn't happened.
I married at 17 to get out of my house. I love my husband but I married early for the wrong reason at the time. I am still married with 2 children, and I am very happy with my husband and children, but my past still haunts me I pray that someday I can over come that.
I am reminded every time I look in the mirror of my scar & the pain I have went through and everytime I see my parents, mostly when they are drinking of the abuse they put me through. Hopefully god will someday change it all.
I know I will try to never lose hope and faith that god will heal me someday....