It was my first year in college when I met my first boyfriend. We got together quickly and just a couple months into the relationship we were already sleeping together. He was my first for a lot of things. Although I was hesitant about being with me he'd always convince me he loved me so I always gave in to him. One night he took me back to my apartment after the both of us had been drinking and forced me down when I tried to fight back. After that, I broke up with him but it took another two months before he left me alone for good. I didn't tell anyone about it because I was too ashamed and especially because I blamed myself for what happened. The man I am with today, I still have trouble fully trusting because of fear that he will be like the last. I keep bringing myself back to that night and try to make sense of it but it hurts so much. When I told my boyfriend about what had happened, he was very understanding and patient about it and I am so thankful. This song has guided me to face that night with a strong heart and let it go, to love myself and others again, to forgive myself and others, and look and my future instead of my past.